I have been taking Bernie's (aka Walter67) death really hard. We were good mates and actually I lived at his place in Oz for a while. It just sucks
also this happened: I loved Vivi so much and I was a week away from getting married and then it all went to shit. This is the second time this has happpened to me but this is the closest I have come to getting married. I am now a professional at almost getting married lol. My friend ben flew all the way from Germany to spend less than a week with me, just 5 days. Once he got here the big problems started. She felt that I didnt care about her and I only wanted all my time with him. She was really hateful to him and even accused us of being gay. I tried for so many months to modify my behaviour to be the man she wanted. I wanted to be happy with her but she wanted me to change more than I could change.
The last time I thought I was close to getting married I tried to change her. I thought I could change her or time would improve her behaviour and it didnt. This time I tried to change myself to fit what she wanted and I couldnt. if I ever get close to getting married again I am only going to marry a girl that I dont have to change and who doesnt want to change me.
I thought I had a traveled enough, done enough, seen enough and I could settle down. But Vivi's life choice is family and only family. She has no friends or social life and I tried to live like that but I cant. When someone cant accept my friends or that I want to spend time with them then its just over. I tried so hard for this relationship I really loved her and still do but we just dont work.
Now I am that guy. You know the guy who was engaged and it didnt work out....
2013 has been shit so far