ijerkoff's Blog

I'm an older married male and my wife and I don't have much of a sex life these days. I have always had a strong sex drive and libido, and have always enjoyed trying the more exotic aspects of sex, whereas my wife was much more conservative and not interested in experimentation. Due to that, I've fantasised about the type of sex I couldn't really experience in real life. So masturbation has been extremely important to me but never more so than the last few years. Lately I've mixed watching porn, writing erotic stories, sex toys and fantasizing to fuel my sexual needs and masturbation, and In recent years, I've become quite turned on by some of the less mainstream forms of sexuality.

Ever since I was a youngster, I have searched for new ways to intensify and diversify my masturbation sessions and at the moment it's watching women peeing. I get really turned on watching videos of a lovely stream of urine squirting from a beautiful cunt. Because it will never happen in reality, I fantasise about it. I lie in the bath and start to piss on myself and as soon as I'm finished I start masturbating and when I ejaculate, I rub my semen and pee all over myself. It gets me so hot at times that if I keep stroking I can sometimes cum a second time. While I don't think much of it when I'm aroused and masturbating, I sometimes become confused when I think about how my wife would respond should she find out. It's not that I consider it to be dirty, because I know some religious orders drink their urine as part of their daily ritual. I don't even consider it to be wrong because no-one is harmed or hurt, but it still worries me a bit.

Tell me I'm not a complete weirdo, please.

Wednesday’s not surprisingly became a ritual of mutual masturbation for us. We would go to my place, head for my bedroom and strip off. Our sessions lasted for up to an hour or more at a time and they were wonderful. Jim was the first sexual partner I had ever had that seemed to enjoy giving pleasure more than receiving it. He taught me how wonderful it is to take time with your partner; slowly increase their arousal until they are almost delirious with pleasure; only then taking them over the top into orgasm and release. Jim was the ultimate sex partner, he was always in the mood and was constantly phoning me and asking to meet.

One day while Jim was stroking my cock he whispered “close your eyes and relax.” After a few minutes of gentle fondling I felt a wonderful warmth surrounding my cock. I looked down and Jim had half the length of my cock in his mouth. I was completely astonished. Here I was going on seventeen years of age, not having ever considered cock sucking as a sex act. It might seem strange in this day and age but this was in the nineteen sixties and there was no porn to speak of back then. My friends and I had never discussed fellatio; it had never occurred to us.
Jim alternated between sucking and tickling the head of my cock with his lips to taking whole length into his mouth with long strokes. I got close to cumming a couple of times and warned him but later said “let it come this time.” He then applied more pressure with his tongue to the rim of the head of my cock. I was so wound up that within seconds I began ejaculating mountains of lava into his mouth. I thought he might be annoyed because I didn’t warn him but he simply continued sucking my cock until it was completely soft.

Jim looked up at me and said “did you enjoy that?”
“Wow Jim that was unreal. Did you actually swallow it?” I replied.

He told me that he did swallow and that he often did that with his own semen after masturbating. After a few moments Jim asked me quite coyly if I would consider returning the compliment. I agreed but felt quite awkward about it at first and didn’t get as much enjoyment as I later would. When he ejaculated in my mouth, it felt sensational but even so I spat it out, I didn’t think it tasted very nice at all. In fact it took a couple of goes before I really enjoyed feeling him ejaculate into my mouth. My favourite was sucking just over the eye of his cock as he ejaculated; the feeling of the semen squirting through my lips was sensational

Our relationship continued for some years and even though I had many girlfriends I couldn’t guess how often Jim and I masturbated together during that time. Frotting with the bottoms of our cocks held together was our favourite position and we’d do that until we’d both cum at least once. Jim went to university to study law and I joined the workforce. Even so we still met regularly to have sex together and one day at his home when his parents were away, we masturbated seven times. It still stands as the most orgasms I’ve ever had in a single day.

After the experience with my cousin Kerrie, nothing much of note occurred for a few years. I fondled a few girls from time to time and jerked off relentlessly but that was about all. Then, when I was sixteen my parents sent me to a boy’s only school in a neighbouring suburb to finish my education. Early on at my new school I met a boy that completely changed my attitude to sex. His name was Jim and he was about six feet tall with a solid build. He wasn’t all that popular with the other boys in our year for some reason and I felt rather sorry for him. Anyway we became friends and got on quite well as it turned out.

Wednesday afternoon was sport day at school and if you weren’t actively involved in a team sport senior students had permission to go home early to study. Because we were both new to the school neither Jim nor I had joined a team so we were permitted to head off home.

One Wednesday morning Jim asked if he could come around to my place and ‘hang out’. I said “Why not!” We caught the bus to my suburb and walked the half mile or so to my house. It was about 1.30pm and no-one was at home. We were in the kitchen getting a snack when Jim suddenly reached over and placed his hand on my crotch and gave my cock a light squeeze. I was startled at first and he said “is this OK with you?”

Almost immediately a wave of arousal flooded my body. I felt quite dizzy and I said “sure’ so Jim began rubbing and squeezing my hardening cock through my pants. He started to undo my fly but was having trouble so I said “Want to go to the bedroom?” He nodded and so we went to my bedroom and I undid my pants and stepped out of them. Jim got the message and his pants came off too. There we were, naked from the waist down with our cocks pointing to the heavens.

Jim’s cock was quite a bit bigger than mine and at least six or seven inches long. It was quite thick with a large red mushroom shaped head and I remember thinking what a beautiful looking thing it was. We sat down on the bed again and began fondling each other and it wasn’t long before my arousal had the better of me.
“Jim” I said “do you want to pull yourself off?”

He replied “lie on the bed and let me play with you for a bit first.”

I lay down on my back on the bed and Jim sat beside me. He began teasing my pelvic region with his fingers, occasionally brushing my cock and balls with the back of his hand giving me the shivers. He started lightly running his fingers up and down the length of the underside of my dick and I opened my legs wide to give him better access to my balls. He was in no rush and just kept tickling me for what seemed an eternity. The build up was incredible and finally I couldn’t stand the sexual tension “please let me cum Jim.” He smiled and slowly worked his way up to the tip of my cock which by now was running with pre-cum.

He spread my pre-cum with his fingers and massaged it over the head of my cock. Quite quickly the pleasure waves in my groin intensified and I knew I couldn’t hold back any longer. I arched my back and began thrusting my hips as he stroked my cock. My breathing became short and hard and I groaned “here it is.” I could feel the involuntary spasm deep inside my cock as the first load of semen spewed from the eye. I almost passed out with pleasure as rope after rope of cum leapt out landing all over my chest and bed. My ejaculation slowed to pulsing ooze and Jim allowed my semen to cascade down all over his hand. As my cock softened he continued stroking using my semen as a lubricant. I closed my eyes and focused on the sensation and before long I could feel my cock beginning to harden again. Jim kept stroking and increasing the speed and I soon realised that I was going to cum again. “Oh yes” I blurted as my second orgasm began. This time there was less semen but it felt just as good.

As I wiped the cum from myself with a hankie it dawned on me that Jim was still hard and hadn’t cum yet. I said “let me do it for you now.” He said ‘OK” and we swapped positions and I began slowly stroking his dick and in just a few moments he moaned “I’m coming” as huge wads of semen shot high into the air splattering onto his chest and stomach. It oozed out of the eye of his cock and ran down dripping from my hand and pooled at the base of his cock. His cock started to soften slightly but I kept up the rhythm and continued to see if he would cum again. I kept going for quite a while before he said “faster now Tony... faster” so I sped up only to watch as he moaned and erupted once more. He had semen all over him and I spread and rubbed it all over his abdomen. I recall the sweet distinctive smell of semen in my room was almost overpowering.

There's more to this story so stay tuned for the next inslallment.

I mentioned in my previous blog how I discovered masturbation and some of my early experimentation with girls. Well, this is how I had my first fuck when I was 15.

I was invited to my uncle and aunt’s property for three weeks during the school holidays. They owned a large beef cattle property in a remote region of Australia. Both my younger cousin Jack and elder cousin Kerrie were at home for holidays too. We arrived at the property in my uncle’s small plane and all the family were there to meet me. My auntie Eileen, my twelve year old cousin Jack and my sixteen year old cousin Kerrie were waiting outside the hanger beside the Land Rover. Being a city boy, I was really looking forward to experiencing life on a cattle station but as I found out, my education went far beyond that.

The first few days were spent hanging around the homestead and going out in the old Land Rover checking fencing etc. It was hot and dusty but I loved being there. On about the fifth day of my stay, Jack had left early with his father to go to town so Kerrie asked if I’d like to try horse riding. I had never been on a horse but I wanted to give it a go so I agreed. She saddled up kindly ensuring I got a smaller more placid horse. We set off about 11 am just as the day was warming up.

I guess we’d ridden for about an hour when we decided to have a drink. She led us through some scrappy undergrowth and we finally emerged by a creek. We tied the horses off to a tree and went down to the creek edge splashing water on our faces to cool down. The water was a bit muddy so we got the canteens and sat in the shade under a willow tree for a drink. I don’t recall our full conversation except to say that it somehow turned to sex and Kerrie told me that while she had seen Jack's cock in the shower, she hadn't ever seen a boys cock when it was stiff. I was about to tell her I would show her mine when she suddenly asked “will you show me yours, if I show you mine?”

Even though I was a bit shocked, I thought “why not?” I remember being full of expectation and had a full on ‘stiffy’. Any talk of cocks, tits or cunts brought on an immediate erection. Kerrie turned to me and said “You go first.” I thought to myself, that’s not fair and replied “you suggested it, you should go first.”

Kerrie reluctantly agreed and unbuttoned and removed her blouse dropping it to the ground. She then undid her bra and removed that too. She stood there obviously self conscious about her breasts being on show. I was amazed just how beautiful they were, smallish but pearly white and sitting up beautifully. Now, you need to understand that these were the only real, true to life female breasts I had ever seen; my only other exposure to female breasts was pictures of natives in my father’s National Geographic magazines. Excitedly I asked “can I touch them?” “Yes.” She said shyly." I moved forward and cupped them in both hands; they felt silky smooth and firm. Her nipples were erect and I played with them for a few seconds. I moved around behind her and cupped my hands on them, massaging slowly and again feeling her nipples.

She turned to me and said “come on, now it’s your turn.” I sheepishly undid the buttons on my pants, let them drop to the ground and stood out of them. My cock was straining against my undies and Kerrie’s eyes were glued to my crotch. I slowly pulled my undies down revealing my hard, but small cock that was now reaching for the heavens. “Can I feel it?” she asked. I immediately nodded yes so she reached over and took my cock between her thumb and forefinger squeezing it as if to feel how hard it was. She then said almost under her breath, “it’s so hard.” She wrapped her hand completely around my dick and began stretching the skin up and down the shaft as if she was going to masturbate me. I was very worried that I might ejaculate while she was feeling me because I was highly aroused. She knelt down for a closer look and cupped my balls with one hand while still rubbing my dick with the other. It felt wonderful, but I had to stop her because I was only seconds from cumming. To take the focus off me and to avoid the embarrassment of ejaculating in front of her I quickly asked “Can I see yours now?”

She let my cock go, and began removing her riding pants. After removing them she slipped her panties down to her knees. “Take them right off” I said, so she dropped them to the ground and stepped out of them. Before me now stood the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. She had perfect tits, a sensational body and a patch of dark brown pubic hair. The fact that she was my cousin was totally irrelevant and my cock was swollen and straining. I had a serious need to masturbate and relieve the tension but I was too embarrassed. We both sat down on our discarded cloths and I placed my hand on her vulva. She sighed deeply without saying anything so I spread her pussy lips with my fingers and slid two fingers into her very wet vagina. I continued to stroke and probe with my fingers and it was obvious she was extremely excited because she pushed down hard against my fingers and hand.

Then, out of the blue, she turned to me and said “do you want to put your thing in there?”
I didn’t need to be asked twice so I said “You bet.” Kerrie said “Please don't cum inside me" as she lay back on her clothes and spread her legs. I was absolutely aching with arousal as I climbed between her legs. I moved my hard cock, as small as it is, to the entrance of her vagina and pushed my cock in as far as it would go. It went in easily because she was so wet and when I was all the way in I stopped all movement just relishing her warm, hot and soft hole.

As I lay there enjoying the sensation, it dawned on me that if I did move I would almost certainly cum inside her so I just lay there trying to hold back my orgasm. Kerrie asked "what's wrong?" and I told her I was very close to cumming. She said "You'd better stop now then" and as I was just about to withdraw, I reached the point of no return and my orgasm started. I quickly pulled out and just as I got clear of her cunt I began ejaculating all over her pubic hair and vulva. I held myself there pumping my semen between her legs and she said "God, you didn't let it get inside did you?" I was pretty sure I hadn't but she was drenched with cum on the outside. Kerrie put her hand down and felt and said "Oh no" and asked me to get off her. I was shattered because I'd only managed to last about ninety seconds before I blew my load.

Kerrie stood and went down to the river where she crouched with her legs apart trying to wash any semen off her and particularly from around her vagina. I just stood there as if in a trance and when she came back she dressed without saying a word. I dressed too and we walked back to the horses and headed off for the homestead. On the way she asked me to “please keep it a secret” and I obviously agreed. She also asked me about my ejaculation and I explained as much as I could about it. She said that she would “like to see it happen again” and I said I’d let her do it to me if she wanted. Strangely, there wasn’t any guilt on my part and I felt very lucky to have had the experience.

Over the next couple of weeks we got together quite a few times but she wouldn’t let me fuck her again. Mostly the encounters were spent fondling her tits and cunt while she played with my cock. Much to my delight she would always stroke me to orgasm and she seemed to really enjoy watching my cum squirt everywhere. I knew nothing about the female clitoris and female orgasm back then so I'm pretty sure she didn't have an orgasm during our sessions. I'm guessing she would masturbate in bed later.

To this day, I have never told a soul of these experiences. This story is the first time I have shared it with anyone. Whilst it took place many years ago, I have never forgotten it and it has provided me with wonderful thoughts and memories for countless masturbation sessions.

As I masturbate to this memory now, my fantasy ends with Kerrie watching intently as I slowly jack-off to orgasm and ejaculate loads of creamy white cum onto my stomach. I do this while I watch her fingers working deep inside her cunt and bringing herself to orgasm.

Well, I got my webcam yesterday and sat up most of the night trying to find someone to connect with. Wifey's away at the moment so I had lots of time.

Unfortunately I didn't find anyone but I found cam4.com which is nice. When I got into bed I jerked off for the first time in 4 days because I've been edging. It was absolutely fabulous, I wish I had it recorded because I blew a huge load compared to usual.

I haven't forgotten about my next blog "first fuck". I'll do it soon.

l had been on a school excursion that returned earlier than expected so we were permitted to go home. I must have been about eleven at the time and when I arrived at home and went inside I could hear the shower running. My father worked shifts so I assumed it was him getting ready for work. I walked up the hallway past the bathroom and noticed the door was open about 6" so I glanced in. What I saw completely shocked me. There was my father in the shower with his head back, eyes shut, stroking his erect cock. My immediate reaction was to go straight to my room but for some reason I couldn't leave. I pulled back so I wouldn't be seen and a few seconds later he let out a soft moan as, this strange white sticky liquid suddenly shot out of his cock and splattered on the glass shower screen. I was amazed, confused and shocked at the same time. I mean I played with my penis all the time but had never considered an adult doing it let alone my dad. I quickly went to by bedroom, shut the door and sat on my bed for an age thinking about what I'd just seen

Some weeks passed and one day, while kicking a football around at the local park with Mal, one of my friends, I told him what I had seen. He was shocked that I'd seen my father jerking off but he told me that he often "pulled himself off". He went on to tell me how good it felt "when you cum." I had no idea what he was talking about so he after he made me promise not to tell anyone, he took me into the men's toilet. When we were inside he slipped his shorts down, took out his stiff cock and started stroking it. He asked if I would do it for him so I took over and began stroking his cock. I was very horny at this stage and badly wanted to get mine out too but suddenly he said "here it comes" and started ejaculating ropes of creamy white cum onto the concrete floor in the toilet. I was completely blown away and as the spurting slowed his cum oozed out all over my hand. Mal went all sheepish and once again made me promise not to say anything to anyone. I agreed and he wiped himself before pulling up his shorts.

Mal reached over and touched the bulge in my pants and said "why don't you try?" so I undid the fly on my pants, slipped my dick out and started stroking furiously. I must have stroked for ten minutes without any result, it felt good but that was all. It seemed I just hadn't reached the right age yet. While I felt a tad frustrated, I knew masturbation and ejaculation were forever etched deeply into my mind and to have witnessing my first orgasm and ejaculation up close was amazing. Needless to say over the next few months I tried at every opportunity to get the ‘spunk’ to come. I jacked off at every opportunity until one night in bed, I was stroking away when I began to feel a new and strange sensation. I kept stroking my cock and suddenly my first orgasm started. It’s hard to describe the experience, but as the wonderful sensation began in my groin, my cock started to pulsate and cum started oozing from it. I was over the moon to know that I’d experienced my first orgasm.

Over the next weeks I jacked off at least once and often three or four times per day. My semen volume increased considerably and my ejaculatory contractions became so strong that I was able to squirt my cum quite a distance. I had never experience anything before that came near the pleasure that I experienced during orgasm and ejaculation; was just amazing and I knew I was hooked for life.

All my friends in our area reached puberty at about the same time and it didn't take long before we were masturbating together regularly. We often got together in someone’s garage or other private place and stood in a circle jacking off. Sometimes we would see who could cum the quickest, or we might take it in turns and see who could shoot the furthest. Jacking each other off was great fun and I never once considered it to be wrong.

During this time my attraction to girls grew enormously and each time I thought of fucking a girl (which was all the time really) I had to jerk off. I was about fourteen at the time and somehow discovered that the Saturday afternoon movie matinee was a fabulous opportunity to meet girls. Basically it went like this... I'd go to the movies, identify a young honey that I fancied and sometime during the show I'd go and sit with her. Sometimes they'd tell me to go away but fortunately not always. My first move was to try and put my arm around her shoulder. If there were no complaints I'd attempt to kiss her. If that was successful I'd let my hand slip down and rest on her breast to see what her reaction was. I often found that my first attempts were unsuccessful but with persistence I found that she would slowly come around and allow me to fondle her breast through her blouse.

Now, during all this excitement, I would have reached maximum arousal and have a huge erection. I remember loving the tension of arousal back then and still do now. Slowly, if my breast fondling was accepted, I'd try to take it to the next step and slip my hand down insider her blouse and bra to feel her bare breasts. If I'd got that far, this usually this wasn't a problem and she would let me. The next step was the real tricky one though, it consisted of dropping my hand onto her knee and just leaving it there for a short time to gauge her reaction. Often this is as far as I would get because the lass didn't want to go that far. But fortunately, some of them allowed it and I would progress to sliding my hand up her dress to reach her panties. I can tell you that on these occasions I would be spinning with arousal, almost light headed.

For a young bloke, that first feel of a girls vulva and vagina is indescribable. If I was allowed to get this far I would slip my fingers inside her panties and insert them into her vagina. It was usually hot and wet at this stage and felt awesome. At about this time, my excitement was so great, that I would often ejaculate spontaneously in my pants. Heavens knows what my mother would think when she was sorting my undies for the wash that week. They would be stained and stiff with semen. She never said a word. And, if I didn't ejaculate in my pants, I would always finish up with a massive case of "lovers balls", which as any young bloke knows is extremely painful. In that case I would have to find a convenient place to masturbate on the way home to relieve the pressure. It all sounds rather humorous when I look back on my fumbling exploits but it was an important part of my sexual education.

The pinnacle of these outings for me was when the girl was so responsive that she would return the compliment and fondle my cock. If I hadn't already cum in my pants, this would absolutely guarantee it. There was one funny incident I remember, sort of a "There's something about Mary" occasion when the lass I was had my cock out, and started stroking it. Well, needless to say I ejaculated almost immediately and I had no idea where it all went. We mopped up what we could with my hankie and I recall leaving the theatre with her after when the movie finished and being introduced to her girlfriends. I was staggered to see that when I ejaculated, one of my squirts had landed on her purple blouse right between her breasts. At that stage it had mostly soaked in but I knew exactly what it was. I was so embarrassed I dared not tell her. What is amazing in hindsight too, is that all this activity took place in a reasonably crowded movie theatre. OK, it was reasonably dark but others must have been able to see what was happening.

Meanwhile, while all this experimentation was going on with girls, I was still jerking off usually more often than once daily and enjoying mutual masturbation sessions with some of my friends. These really were terrific times, I miss them.

My next instalment explains how I had my first fuck.

Well my first sexual experience was quite unusual I think, it was watching my father masturbate in the shower. I'll talk about that a bit later but it was my introduction to masturbation, something I've enjoyed all my life and still do. I was fortunate enough to have some good friends that I masturbated with when I was young and also fortunate to have many female sex partners. Perhaps as many as 30 before I was married.

One significant thing is that I have quite a small cock. I used to really worry about it but I've completely come to terms with it now because it's not something you have control over. I mean it is what I was dealt when I was born so I figured I'd better get used to it. Strangely, I was never teased about it even when I was young and in fact the only 2 people that have ever commented on it were a friend called Jim who used to tell me my cock was "cute" and my wife's sister Kate who caught me masturbating a couple of years after I was married. She occasionally gives me the little finger wave if she's in a teasing mood.

While I've had a lot of regular partner sex over the years it's masturbation that really turns me on. Watching a male or female pleasuring themselves is simply beautiful. When I was young my friends and I often had contests to see who could cum the quickest (I almost always won) or squirt the furthest (I did well in that too). The ability to reach orgasm quickly is often seen as a negative thing in partner sex but for a chronic masturbator like me it has been a real bonus. It meant I was able to slip my cock out and cum in less than 2 minutes; I was able to jerk off anywhere the urge arose and finish quickly.

Talking of urges, it's strange that certain places and situations would always bring on the need to masturbate. Right through my life, each time I stepped into a shower I got an erection and usually jerked off. I have happily watched literally gallons of my semen disappearing down plug holes all over the world. Another situation that gave me the "urge" was being on my own. It didn't matter where I happened to be, if I found myself alone I almost always jerked off. In some amazing places too.

A bit about me... I'm 55 and married to a wonderful woman and mother. Sally and I met on a holiday to Surfers Paradise and it was love at first sight for us both. We went back to her apartment together the first night and, I don't know how many times we fucked, but we didn't get much sleep. It was sensational. In fact, for the next week, we rarely ventured out and spent most of the time in bed. My 2 mates and her girlfriend must have felt neglected.

Upon returning home we continued seeing each other and ultimately married about a year later. We've now been married for 32 years and have 3 children and 2 grandchildren. Sally has been a wonderful wife in so many ways but unfortunately she was raised in a family with Victorian and prudish views on sex so she has never loosened to many of the things I yearned for like cunnilingus and fellatio etc. To her credit, early on she tried but it was very obvious that it was for my benefit and it was something she endured rather than enjoyed. So, for obvious reasons I didn't pursue it. I guess that's another reason masturbation has been such a significant thing in my life... I created a fantasy world where anything goes. Not like the real thing unfortunately, but pretty bloody good all the same.

In my next edition I'll tell you about seeing my father jerking off and how I discovered masturbation.

I've always considered diary keeping, or blogging to be self indulgent but when I stumbled across NN recently I decided to give blogging a go. "Why the change?" you ask. Well there is something refreshing, even exhilarating about a community of likeminded ordinary people sharing their sexual experiences and indulging their fantasies. In fact NN is the only sex site I've ever paid to join or in this case take Premium Membership. Regular porn sites with their commercialised, scripted and acted sex scenes have leave me cold. Fake people with fake bodies indulging in sex for the cash rather than the pure joy of it. Not for me.

Moving on... I have always considered myself to have a very high libido and I've always been basically addicted to sex. So I guess I've had a broad range of sexual experiences in the "normal" sense of the word. I still fantasise and masturbate about some of my early experiences and the thought of documenting them and publishing them really turns me on.

If you happen to stumble across my musings, I hope you find them of some interest. I'm really doing this for my own benefit but it would be awesome if some of you actually enjoyed it too. If you do, please let me know, it would make me happy.

I'll tell you a bit about myself in the next blog update.