Dignitea's Blog - page 14

I woke early, the planned coastal walk, never happened, the wind was, just not blowing hard enough, for where, I wanted, just the way it goes sometimes, but, in a little break this afternoon, I did get out, 7 days in a row, 7 different pictures, it must be years since, I have done this.

So, i managed what I wanted in a way.

My photography journey, is on going. I am working on a few little projects, might make a little book for myself at the end of them, there is no time scale, will know, when, they are done.

But now, it will be a week off, just back to keeping it fresh.

It is pictures, like this, that you get to see, the image better at, a larger size, Hazel flowers, so tiny, took me an age to see some, then kept losing them, so much was against me, but in the end not one but two, never had this before, it is just the small things, that make me smile.

I got told today, it is a waste of holidays, because, I take my birthday off, on holiday, each year, this year, I took 4 days as it was on Tuesday, was only going to take 2 days but the way work was, it ended with 4.

The weather, has not been the best, but I have got out, each day, 6 days with the camera now, I stood this morning for an hour at a tree, I like to shoot, never even pressed the shutter once, had a talk with a few dog walkers and was back in the house and sitting to breakfast around 9, the rain really started, after then.

I took Facebook and Messenger of my last device , forgot it was on this, as it can be a week or two in between uses,, Instagram, went as well today, I have over 1200 days left of premium here, just saw that today.

I would like to be up and out, too, the coast tomorrow morning, a storm is hitting and would be nice to shoot some waves., but will just wait and see, how, I am when I wake at my usual 4am. The bag is all ready one lens and my camera, travel light.

I was thinking back to when, I had my breakdown, I was 16 and life, just spiralled out off control, I could not even leave the house for a while, but then one night, I xxxxxxxxxx myself, I walked to my gate, stood and ran back in, but it was the start to getting better, walked at night. then one morning, I got up and just walked out door in the daylight, was still early, never looked back from then, within another few weeks, I started to get some work and after a bit longer, fell back into working all the time. I thought that keeping busy all the time, would keep me safe.


Thankfully the garden , gave me, my picture, today, the little crocus, are just coming into bloom, another one of my signs of the seasons changing..

My 57th year on this world, has been , a very trying one, but still, how lucky, I really have been, as such minor side effects of the Stroke, but I know, how lucky I was, But yesterday, I started my 58th year on this world.


I have used the camera, 5 days in a row , for me, that is a lot, but really been trying to get something different each day, I am ready for a break now, maybe tomorrow or from Friday.
Today a black and white, when I headed out, it was how i was thinking, I am enjoying taking them and my editing of them, I think is getting better, the learning, is what, I enjoy.

I am glad, that clicking on the little thumbnail picture, lets people see a more larger image, I know, some of my pictures benefit by seeing them large.

Four days walked the same route, each day something different taken. will see, the weather and might try for the coast, if not still got a few coastal pictures from the other weeks.

So here is today's picture, a little bit of wildlife, i got a new pair of trousers all covered in mud, had to get down and crawl a little bit to get into a better position, I like to get in, get my picture and get back out, without disturbing, all that training, still being out too use ,,

I waited a while to get them, all with there heads up, plenty of them feeding, but I was hoping for more something like this..

Was reading yesterday , off someone's love for Prince, sure did make me, think of Julie, she really loved the song Purple Rain, throw in Let's go crazy and she would have been in pure bliss.

She would have been 58 yesterday, life just has too many if only sometimes.

I walked in the woods, this afternoon, sat in, one of my spots, by the river, watching the water splash over, the little dam, I got the camera out and started taking pictures, not really sure, what I was trying, but it was enjoyable, maybe the start of a new project, it gave me, my picture for my blog, for tonight, it is a bit like looking at clouds and seeing shapes, but in the water splashes and droplets, it makes the mind, so calm,

Tomorrow afternoon, might hit the coast, will see..

So tonight , one of the splash pictures, click for a larger image and see, if there is anything within the picture for you.

My holiday, officially starts tomorrow, part of only working 4 days a week now.

My last day of work, had two much drama, which might lead too, two men, getting the sack, too many just standing back thinking it was all so funny, but even from a distance, I just knew, it was going to get out of hand, this time, so I ran over, got between them lead one away. I got on with them both, had to give a statement. will , all be sorted by the time, I get back.

I got, the results from my Heart tests and all is normal, can now start too, do, that little bit more. Have to get rid of that feeling of being lazy these last close to 8 months. which it will only be me, that see's it that way.


Apart from here, social media wise, Twitter is all I have, now, that I have it, the way I like, I am enjoying it. my feed it full of photography and nature, recently, art has creeped in, I kind of call it, working class art, so much, I can relate too and just understand. It is the only thing, I wise, I could have done , is draw, too paint, but I paint with my camera.

For so long, I have thought, I could make something here, it is an interesting view, man made, I think it could have been part of a bridge, for where I am sitting, there is same support stones, with the water running below, it is a puzzle, that I might never solve, but it is still just another little hidden gem in my little world, Click to see,, it bigger, if you would like.

I posted a picture of the moon in status last night, never added a picture, to a post before and for all, I will get more views on my picture, it will, only be a very occasional thing, the biggest reason, was I never knew how, but thanks too Arti,, who messaged me, a while ago and told me how,, NN has sure taught me a lot.

I only have Facebook left on my tablet,but it will be deleted this week, I am just not missing it, will also be deleting messenger, It seldom gets used.

I sat among rubble yesterday, it was once a home, a place, that I spent a lot of time, the home of the Mouse, only been back there a few times and this time nothing, was like sign, to, move on, too put the memories to the back of the mind, keep the happy thoughts going.

I go on holiday from Thursday, I was not going to take more than a day off, but it is now a week off, a week of picture taking and building up my walking distances, I have to try, to not is not my way.

I might try and blog a picture, every day of the holiday will see.


Inspiration comes from many places and many things, you just have to see it, to learn from it and well, get on with it.


The joy of just getting down in the dirt and taking a picture, a week further on and the snowdrops are opening, now a question, I always post my picture on here, from Flickr, but I now know, that if I post like I did in status and you click the thumbnail, you can open the full picture, would you prefer, me to do this going forward, very much upto to you..

I am a comfort spender, always have been, it is a lot easier now, with online shopping and Amazon and I , really was the best of friends, but in the last month, not one thing have, I had delivered, a few digital downloads of books and a magazine, but that is all.

The desire to get a new camera is , how, I have changed, I set a goal and stick to it, could I have just bought a new one, yes, but I am happier to save for it, I am thinking December 2023 will be when I get my next full frame, it will be mirrorless, then after that, it will be saving for the new lenses, that I will want.

I learned yesterday, that I can still get down and lie on the ground, such a small thing, but it made me so happy, I laid on my stomach, I laid on my left and right and a few contorted positions, as well, all tested for the sake of my art.

I have been in a bit of a rut, but it is weather and time of year related, pretty much the same most years, some years are worse, than this, but come end of this month, I will step things, up, lighter mornings, lighter evenings.

My January nightmares, have been the least ever, only one night that has been really bad, the trauma of all those years ago, but for the most part, nothing, most nights, I have slept well, well for me anyway. But never will forget 4 people lost there lives, that night.

I am so close to being 58, the number, means nothing to me, never really got caught up on, that whole age thing, as long, as I can do, what I can and want too, all that really matters too me.


My reason for getting down on the ground, Snowdrops like seeing the first Daffodils bursting through the ground in the woods, is the start of change, for me, the snow drop flowers first, will be a few weeks till there, at there best in my little woods, how seeing these little things, lifts the spirits so much..

I stood on, the beach on Friday morning, it was cold, 2 weeks in a row now, it is a wonderful place, this country boy, has always been attracted too, the coast, more so, from when, I started taking pictures, like before, I gave it up for so long, I am truly stupid at times, will not be an every week sort of thing, not sure it would be possible, maybe in the winter months, but as soon as the weather heats up and the butterflies and dragonflies are back around, I am going to spend a lot of time,, with them this year, had planned to do do so, before the Stroke, but all being well, will do so.

Listening to the Oystercatchers in the dark, is a right pleasure, the waves gently rolling in , no Curlews, i find there call, quite sad, or lapwings, will need to walk further along next time.


A lonely figure walks, along the beach with the birds for company, 57 years, i have been too this beach, it is part of me, I guess, as much, as my woods, I maybe am just a man of the world.

Woke up, to a fair bit of damage from the storm last night, will mean the end of one journey for now, not fit enough to rebuild just now, Mother Nature, might just be telling me, that is not my world now, Maybe it is, just through the lens, just seems to be one thing after another, to test me, just now.

My first visit to, the see in years, was beautiful, the storm was in the foreplay mode then, the waves crashing on the pier, the wind howling and standing there, feeling so alive. I fired of over 400 pictures, still got around 60, got 2, that I like, one, one that was nearly really good and a black and white as well.

I had been feeling down before, yesterday, but it picked me up, no end, then to waken to the damage this morning, strange thing is, I am smiling and not really bothered, about it all

THings are sent to test us, my test came last night, but instead of it, getting me down, now i see it, as a chance for new adventures.