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I have been away a long time! Now I'm back.

I'm facing a layoff and I could use a little boost.

On top of that, my relationship with my SO is basically non-existent at this point. My bedroom is so dead, the bones have turned to dust.

Feel free to reach out to me here. I'll answer messages that I can.

Before I write this, you need to know that I'm not a pervert or a pedophile. It is the MOM I am attracted to.

I went to breakfast the other day at one of our normal spots. Next to us was a young-ish family, father, mother, 8-10 year old daughter, and 12-14 year old daughter. The girls were sitting on the bench opposite me.

It isn't that I was looking, but the younger was squirming. All of a sudden, I get an upskirt of her naked pussy. It isn't that I was looking, I just glanced where there was motion and there it was.

I thought it kind of odd. This girl is young, but certainly knows how to dress herself. But no underwear. I didn't think much more of it until her sister started scooting out of the booth. Her dress rode up and there it was. She wasn't wearing anything underneath either.

At this point, I looked, not glanced, over my coffee at the mother. If neither daughter was wearing any undies, Mom probably isn't either.

She is in her early to mid forties with mid length brown hair and blue eyes. Not gorgeous, but certainly pretty. She was wearing a white t-shirt with a sweater vest over it. (Well, not really a sweater vest. What I mean is a vest that is made from wool like a sweater.) And nothing underneath the t-shirt.

To top it all off, I saw them twice more that day while shopping and cleaning my car. Perhaps I always run into the same people, but this woman entered my psyche.

I admit (at least to you, dear reader) that I've fantasized about her. Last night, I dreamt about her. There is something about a woman who is uninhibited and unencumbered and teaches her kids to be the same. Someday, I hope to become involved with one (my wife is FAR from that).

And sure, they could just need to wash the whites, but I choose to think otherwise.

I decided earlier this week that I need to get serious about losing some weight. I saw my reflection, and it was not what I remembered.

My goal is not insignificant. I want to lose 10 pounds before the month is out. It should be possible, but I've had problems in the past.

I'm going to document it, so expect some before/after pics -- though hardly anything that will be "as seen on TV."

I've decided that it is time to shoot some more pictures, but I'm really not sure what I want to do. Suggestions?

I took the first few quickly, without thinking much about what people really want to see. As I look at most of the photos here, it seems that most guys have done the same thing -- just dick shots or cum shots. Is that what you want to see?

Please help!

As I've said, I really don't have a lot of experience in this whole realm and I got to thinking about something I can only call etiquette. In a swinger party or other event with multiple partners, does the guys cum inside the women? Or is that considered improper? I would imagine it gets a little messy. Does it also discourage oral sex?

Thanks guys!

I love blogging here. I can write anything and no one cares.

On other sites, I could write about work stuff or politics or poetry. But here, I can let out the stuff that makes me me. I can write out thoughts that I wouldn't put elsewhere and get some comments that help clarify the situation. I like that. It is a fairly safe and friendly community.

Many people here post videos or little ditties. Others put fantasy stories. Still others post the same type of stuff that is on other blog sites. That's cool, but probably not the way I'll go. I may post a fantasy at some point, but only for your amusement.

I started writing to explore. I'm continuing because it's fun and because there are many other worlds withing our collective psyche.

Ciao for now

I've got a question that's been bugging me and I can't think of a better place to ask it than here.

How do guys who are really large get head?

OK, some background. I'm not particularly large, as you can tell from my pics. Yet I've received more than a few teeth scratches from the women I've been with. In fact, all but one or two have scraped at least a little, and not in a good way.

So for the larger guys (and the people that love them), do you get cut up frequently? Or do you just not get a full mouth?

I like this site. The opportunity to learn about different people is fantastic. It surprises me pleasantly how many people pose and take pictures. As I posted some time ago, I'm new to it.

I really wish my partner was up for it. She is not and I respect her point of view. But I would get quite a thrill shooting a roll or two.

On top of that, there is something quite thrilling about knowing that people are looking at me. Knowing that some are getting turned on. Knowing that one or two might even rub one out while looking at me.

So for the time being, I have to get in front of a mirror. That or find a friend who would be up for it. How do you even broach that subject?

It's anotherSaturday night. I'm sitting here on the coach. The wife is asleep. Webwere going to mess around tonight, but once again, she fell asleep.

I know I'm going to sound like a selfish jerk, but this has gotten old. It has been going on for a while. She has no reason to fall asleep so early. She doesn't get up that early. She doesn't work that hard.

The only time we have sex is when she's drunk.

Here's an ethical dilemma. Should I tell my wife she needs to cut down on how much she is drinking?

The easy answer is yes. Drinking until one is drunk several nights a week is not healthy. It stresses the liver, dulls the nervous system, and can cause weight gain (it isn't that I care about the weight gain, but she does).

However.

She does have chronic pain that NSAIDs don't help anymore and a few drinks ease it an relaxes her. On top of that, she doesn't NEED the drink, she likes it.

Just so you don't think I'm altruistic, when she has a drink or three, we have some massive sex. She'll do things, even ask for them, that she wouldn't do sober. And this is the vast majority of nights. Without the drinks, she'll go weeks (even months) without any physical contact.

So you see my dilemma. If she has a few drinks, she feels better and I get laid. If she doesn't, she protects her health, has a lot of pain, and I'm xxxxxx into celibacy.